What being a Father, Writer, Logistical Wizard means to me…

I have been very happy with my blog title. I think it was a stroke of creative genius. So I thought I would take a moment to elaborate on what this means to me and why I chose it.

 

Fatherhood, for me, was not something I thought was in the cards when I was a younger man. My biological father has been a constant source of disappointment my entire life. I vowed that I would never be like him. Part of that, to a younger me, meant that I wasn’t going to be a father myself. I met my wife when I was 21, and she not quite 19. I was enamored and in love. She said I was too serious. We lasted a few months. Some years later, we both are a little wiser and a little older. We start dating again, but she doesn’t immediately tell me that she has a child. When she did, it took only a moment for me to realize that, while I had no idea how to be a father, that I wanted to be a part of this little boy’s life. He has brought so much joy, and a few challenges, to my life as I learn exactly what it means to be a father. Previous examples in my personal upbringing did not prepare me for this rollercoaster of emotions.

 

Writing, and reading, has always been a passion of mine. From a young age I wrote simple rhymes and thought myself a poet. Short stories and the decade long process of my first novel has taught me many things, and I continue to learn more about myself and my Voice everyday. I used to spend alot of time in my younger days playing tabletop RPG games like Dungeons and Dragons. I created continent spanning stories in worlds I drew on graph paper myself. The Science Fiction/Fantasy genre has captivated my imagination my entire life.

 

Logistical Wizard is two parts actually. My day job is dispatching fuel trucks to gas stations and assorted bulk plants or terminals. Routing and trip planning, timing to get to the gas station before they run out of fuel; It is an enigma every day that has to be solved. I have often described it to other people as opening a new puzzle every day. Some of the pieces are the same, and might even fit together similar to the day before. The hardest part is when someone throws extra pieces at you when you are almost done and you have to start over. At the end of the day, I get to look at the finished scene and know that I created it.

 

As for the Wizard part, well, it is a nickname I picked up at my day job. They often call me Word Nerd/Wizard as well, due to the lenghty hand off notes and reports I have filed. I also in my life have had some unfortunate experiences with people who call themselves Christians. I have no problem with the faith and its teachings, for the most part. I feel that there are great moral lessons to be learned within organized religion. I just became very disenfranchised with the hypocrisy I encountered personally. Because of this I have classified myself as Pagan for a long time. This led to being called Wiccan, or Witch, Warlock, but my favorite has been Wizard. It conjures up images of Merlin and Gandalf and all the other sorcerors of literary legend that I have enjoyed reading about.

 

So, come along with me on this journey of being a Father, Writer, and Logistical Wizard. Should be fun…

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